Yes it is that time of year again…
I wanted to take this opportunity to wish you all a happy Christmas and to thank you for being part of my life.
As you will know this year has been very difficult but I am still here, I am still living and I am beginning to thrive again.
No matter what life throws at us, we can face it and more than that we can overcome it….for those of you who don’t think I know what I am talking about, the fact that my husband was diagnosed with terminal leukemia and then four day later we lost our house to a fire and everything we owned and then less than 5 months later my husband passed away, so I think this allows me to say that we can overcome it, I am living proof of that.
I have had to walk the cancer path with the chemo thrown in, then buried my best mate, my rock, my lover and then try to rebuild first a house to live in and then a life to live.
I learnt a strange thing….the more you lose the easier it is to let go.
After the fire I thought I would hold on tightly to everything we re bought, but none of it had any memories attached and I now knew it could all be gone in just a few minutes. When my husband died I realized the fire had been preparing me for this, it taught me that you can let go and move on, you can choose to live in the here and now and enjoy every moment or dwell on everything you have lost and be miserable.
I do have the advantage that I believe we live on after this life, so to me Colin is only a thought away now and as long as I live I am living for both of us. Yes I get sad and have moments of tears, sometimes days of feeling overwhelming grief, but I also know that this will pass and I will be ok. I also have a strong faith in God (but I am not religious) and that has been a huge help in getting me through this year, just knowing that someone knew what the future held and that there was someone who loved me and had my back.
It is having beautiful people like all of you who have made me see that I still have a purpose and as the new year begins I plan to be adding things here on a regular basis.
Thankyou for all your love and support.
Have a happy holidays and a wonderful and blessed New Year.