Tis the Season


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Yes it is that time of year again…

I wanted to take this opportunity to wish you all a happy Christmas and to thank you for being part of my life.

As you will know this year has been very difficult but I am still here, I am still living and I am beginning to thrive again.

No matter what life throws at us, we can face it and more than that we can overcome it….for those of you who don’t think I know what I am talking about, the fact that my husband was diagnosed with terminal leukemia and then four day later we lost our house to a fire and everything we owned and then less than 5 months later my husband passed away, so I think this allows me to say that we can overcome it, I am living proof of that.

I have had to walk the cancer path with the chemo thrown in, then buried my best mate, my rock, my lover and then try to rebuild first a house to live in and then a life to live.

I learnt a strange thing….the more you lose the easier it is to let go.

After the fire I thought I would hold on tightly to everything we re bought, but none of it had any memories attached and I now knew it could all be gone in just a few minutes. When my husband died I realized the fire had been preparing me for this, it taught me that you can let go and move on, you can choose to live in the here and now and enjoy every moment or dwell on everything you have lost and be miserable.

I do have the advantage that I believe we live on after this life, so to me Colin is only a thought away now and as long as I live I am living for both of us. Yes I get sad and have moments of tears, sometimes days of feeling overwhelming grief, but I also know that this will pass and I will be ok. I also have a strong faith in God (but I am not religious) and that has been a huge help in getting me through this year, just knowing that someone knew what the future held and that there was someone who loved me and had my back.

It is having beautiful people like all of you who have made me see that I still have a purpose and as the new year begins I plan to be adding things here on a regular basis.

Thankyou for all your love and support.

Have a happy holidays and a wonderful and blessed New Year.

Never alone

angels always watching over us. In the times I felt most alone, these were the times I realized that my angels were actually right there watching over me. So this is an art piece I did to show this.

Happy Holidays

Merry Christmas

Missing in Action


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I think that describes how I feel, it is like my life has been ripped out from under me and I have been transported to a new house and a new life. A life that revolves around cancer.

My husband has a rare form of Leukemia which there is no cure for, but, they give you chemo in the hope that it will prolong your life….but at what cost…. every 28 days we start anew chemo round of two injections every day for 7 days, his stomach becomes red, bruised, too sore to touch and his appetite has gone, food has no taste and this is just the start…..then on top of that 2 chemo tablets a day, after the chemo injections he is so tired that he sleeps most of the time, he is fatigued and I watch him fade before my eyes.

So far the last two months we have then gone in for him to have blood transfusions, then he picks up, just starts to feel better and wham we start all over again……how long for… forever….this is our life from now until he dies……we are hoping and praying that after the first 6 months he may pick up a bit and have a little quality of life….we hope so.

I treasure every moment that he is a part of my life and I am so grateful that I have him in my life in whatever form that is so for this reason alone the treatment is worthwhile. If he was in pain and suffering more then I wouldn’t want that, but for now we can continue on and hope that the treatment is going to help. He is strong and isn’t ready to give up so that is promising. We appreciate all your thoughts and prayers at this time.

How do we go on….we take each day as it comes. On good days we enjoy the things we can do, on bad days we just focus on getting through. We make the most of the moments we get to share and try not to look too far into the future. We have some wonderful friends who are walking this journey with us whether they are here physically or just in spirit, you know who you are – ┬áthank you so much, you are giving us the strength to get through this. Also God is a big part of us getting through, it is our trust in him that keeps us believing that whatever the outcome everything will work out as it is meant to, we don’t have to have the answers or be in control, we can let go and let God.

I am still out taking photos, I struggle to process them but I am continuing to try to create some digital art, even if it is to help me find some joy within this bleak landscape that has become our lives.

I have a peace that everything will work out, somehow, someway and it is this that keeps me going. So sorry there have not been many updates but as we adjust to this life I am sure I will be able to bring you more art and photography, tips and hopefully words of wisdom.

The tip for today is just to use your phone if you don’t have your camera and get lost in the moment and create some beautiful images. Try to pick a bouquet of joy each day,a Buddhist saying is, life has 10,000 sufferings and 10,000 joys, the sufferings seem to find us, but we have to look for the joys.

Would love to know which of the Remarkable rocks image you like best and any other comments you wish to make.

remarkable rocks, Kangaroo Island

cradled by nature

Protection

Protected, even in the wild

cradles in natures embrace

reading at remarkable rocks

New direction


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I have decided to start making some inspirational and motivational posters. These will be available through Red Bubble and are a very affordable way to bring art and inspiration into your life, either at home or in the office. I will show some examples here with a link to where you can get them. Would love your feedback as to what you think.

advirsity is as strong wind1

adversity brings out who we really are

http://www.redbubble.com/people/juliakharwood/works/10940424-adversity-is-as-a-strong-wind?ref=work_main_nav

lifes an adventure or nothing

A lilttle pup full of live and into eveything

http://www.redbubble.com/people/juliakharwood/works/10940443-life-is-either-a-daring-adventure-or-nothing?ref=work_main_nav

 

not years in your life

as we age a lot of people slow down, but more and more nowdays the grey naomads are getting out and enjoying life to the full

http://www.redbubble.com/people/juliakharwood/works/10949104-life-in-your-years?ref=work_main_nav